I never intended to take a gap year while pursuing my bachelor’s. It felt like a waste of my time, and I was concerned about falling behind in life if I did. Even right now, I feel behind and a little lost about this decision. I think when we feel unsure about something we’ve done, it’s important to remember why. Over the last year, I have felt a lot of anxiety and a lack of motivation. This was heavily reflected in my academics and self-esteem. Being aware of why you chose a certain path helps you make peace with it.

Plans for the year

Priority at the moment would be finding a job. Which, if you are also trying, best of luck! Because it’s actually horrible out there right now. Secondly, save as much money as I can. Those two go hand in hand. I would love love love to work at Ulta, maybe a serving job, or at a cute little local coffee shop. I want to get out of my comfort zone more often. I want to spend less time on my phone and the internet, ironically. Although I see this as a creative outlet and not brain rot. Which I still love, but I swear sometimes I feel like I’m losing my mind. Therefore, I’m forcing myself to have hobbies. Speaking of which includes: reading, crocheting (I suck), makeup, and scrapbooking. I also want to add roller skating and cake decorating to the list this year. Lastly, I want to be consistent with my content. This blog in itself is going to challenge me. What I hope to gain from this experience is dedication, patience, and to learn new things about myself.

Changes I hope to see

Someone who doesn’t avoid hard or uncomfortable situations or conversations. Someone excited about life. Someone who overcame all of their fears and worries. Someone with discipline. Someone who can roller skate! Someone who will look back at her gap year and know that it was the right decision.